Saturday 19 December 2015

Progressive Sport - An Introduction.

In a modern, technologically advanced world, there is so much to cherish and marvel at. Communication and the immediacy and accessibility of knowledge are nowoccurrences that are taken as commonplace in our everyday lives. Those same lives are made easier in various different ways because of this accessibility. The world has grown smaller, despite not reducing in size. At the touch of a button, you can talk to someone on the far side of the world via video calling - something that would have been considered impossible merely two decades ago.

Yet due to these advances and strides in technology, are we - as humans and a society - now guilty of a more narrowed world view? Are we not desensitized to the plight of those most vulnerable around us? Mental health problems take many different forms within a wide spectrum of people. From depression to suicidal tendencies and anxiety. A stigma surrounds these illnesses - for illnesses they are - brought on by a callous media and a selfish 'me first, you second' attitude of a Government obsessed with the wealthy and powerful.

In all honesty, we do not talk about mental health enough. It is a blind spot in society - not for everyone, but for the majority. I can say this with absolute certainty and through personal experience, having experienced many of these issues in 2013. For this post, and maybe more in the future, I'd like to take a look at the positive and progressive way in which sport can improve the mood and help to break down the barriers surrounding those with mental health issues, along with the stresses within their lives. 


The first question to be asked is simple; What can sport do for a modern lifestyle? There are so many answers to this question, yet I think the foremost and easiest is simple. Sport is inclusion. Acceptance. At least in later life, if not so much in youth sports, where children are judged for not participating. This can also be seen in adults, yet that has nothing to do with the sport or activity itself, but the players and participants. Sport itself has no barriers, it is us as humans and a society that place restrictions upon participation. Yet nevertheless it is inclusive and can help people to forget the stresses of life for a little while. You get lost in the moment, the companionship, the competitive spirit. It allows people to feel good about themselves, when often there seems to be nothing worth feeling good about.

Sport can act as a stimulate, also. It can become something to look forward to, when everything else around seems bleak and lonely. Whether it's the lunchtime ritual of running that gets you through your day, or the meeting with friends for a friendly match of netball, the power of sport and being physically active can help to banish demons of the mind. 

I hope to go into more depth and detail over the coming weeks and months about the power of sport and mental health. Yet for this first post, I will sign off with the simple philosophy that I have found to be true over the last twelve months. Many people choose sport or fitness to improve their image, in a world where vanity is King. Going into a new year, with new opportunities and challenges, choose sport for the right reasons. Choose it for yourself, if you find that you're fighting a rearguard action in your battles of the mind. I did, and now, when I decide to look back, it's only to reaffirm my commitment to going forward. 



Thursday 4 June 2015

Denee - Chapter Two


Chapter Two – Denee.

“Again Denee, press!” Barked Rikkal Stone into the momentary silence as the two students he had been watching spar broke apart, sweat streaming down their faces and groans echoing around the sparsely occupied practice yard. Denee directed a grimace in the direction of the Lord Commander before immediately launching into an attacking form with her blade, driving her opponent, Carle, back a few steps before he could react.

Denee winced as she blocked a vicious overhand cut from Carle, the impact jarring her right shoulder. She replied with a low diagonal cut towards his unprotected midriff, watching as his eyes widened in surprise. Grunting in satisfaction, she pressed harder, forcing him back step by step towards the edge of the chalk circle of the duelling ring. Carle always underestimated his opponents, and Denee was determined to make him pay for it. Advancing, she rained steel down on the red haired man, parrying his limp ripostes with ease. His defence became more and more frantic, his breathing harsh and laboured. This was the third and final round and so far, no blood touches had been made.

The blades clashed together in a screeching of steel as Denee forced Carle back towards the edge of the ring. Her muscles strained as she pushed harder, throwing all her weight into one final heave. A quick glance over his shoulder showed Carle how close he was to the chalk line. Pressing forward hard, Denee looked as if she was about to break through and claim the winning cut, when Carle took a leap sideways to the right, his left boot flashing out to catch her in a sickening blow to the stomach. Gasping and wheezing, Denee dropped to the ground like a stone in water, her blade falling from hands that scrabbled protectively around her body. Groaning she lay prone on the ground, struggling to catch her breath as Carle, now smiling widely, sauntered arrogantly forward. He raised his blade and pressed it lightly to her shoulder.

“Do you yield?” He drawled, with a satisfied smirk on his face. Looking around the stands, he waved lazily at the few students dotted amongst the casual onlookers. A wooden structure, the training arena rose twenty levels in a circular fashion, opening to the sky. Benches had been placed along each tier and nailed down securely. Barely half were full.  Not many had ventured out this morning to witness the practice bouts.

“Well?” He asked her once more. “We don’t have all day to watch you lie in the dust, you know. Do you yield?”

Denee raised her head and pulled herself up into a crouching position, taking a few more calming breaths. She had slowly recovered her wind. Her green eyes searched the ring and found Rikkal. With a small smile, she turned her head and gazed up at Carle. “Of course I don’t yield, you fucking fool” And swift as a snake, she uncoiled and bounded to her feet, a knife dropping into her left hand and - with unerring accuracy - she slashed a shallow cut across his cheek, leaping backwards out of range before he could react. Squealing Carle clapped a hand to his face and staggered backwards, tripping over his feet and falling flat on his arse. His sword went spinning from his hand to clang hard against the barriers. Blood ran between his fingers and dripped into the dusty ground as he cried for help.

The crowd all looked to the Lord Commander, who casually declared “First blood Denee, match over. Medics, get him cleaned up” before turning away and striding towards a small mousy servant, bedecked in the Royal livery of the King of Salen. He was carrying a tray of refreshments. Grasping a glass of iced goat’s milk, Rikkal turned to watch as Denee acknowledged the cheers and scattered applause of the crowd before making her way over to the weapons stand to remove her practice armour.

Her shoulders ached from the morning’s exertion. Carle was arrogant and overconfident, but he was no slouch. His attacks hurt and Denee knew she would be spending the evening soaking in the baths after today. Abruptly, the applause cut off and she turned to see Rikkal striding back to the centre of the duelling ring. She groaned inwardly. It was time to evaluate the fight. Rikkal was her brother by blood, and because of that – and his lofty station – he was rarely easy on her. Well, she’d won today, but there were sure to be ways to improve, regardless.

I can count on him for that she thought wryly.

“There are a few lessons to be learned from this bout.” Rikkal announced, confirming her fears immediately. “I will give half a free day and two silver pieces to the student who can correctly identify them. Do we have volunteers?”

There was a scramble and creak of benches as hands flew into the air. Denee paled as the few students in the stands strived to catch the Lord’s attention. She thought she had done well here… 

Surveying the crowd, Rikkal pointed to a tall, blond boy of barely twenty years in the back row. “Traval, you will do nicely” he called out. “What can you tell me?”

Standing up, Traval nervously clasped his hands behind his back as he answered. “Umm, well, umm, I think sir, that Carle thought it was all won. Ee’ underestimated Denee, sir. Got too casual, if yer know what I mean…sir. Paid for it wit’ a lovely little scar he has.” He finished to a ripple of laughter.

Denee watched as her brother allowed himself a brief smile.  He let his gaze drift over to where the medics were treating Carle, and he slowly nodded. “Excellent Traval” He agreed “You are quite right. Whether your opponent is a man, a woman or a cornered beast, if you relax your guard for even one second, the tide of the contest can change on an instant – especially if you inexplicably decide to gloat. You are quite right indeed. Did you notice aught else?”

Shaking his head, Traval sat back down. Pointing this time to the front row, Rikkal gestured to a small red haired girl who had tentatively raised her hand. “Yes Carrie, a fitting choice. What did you see?” he enquired.

Flushing bright red at being addressed directly by the Lord Commander, Carrie climbed to her feet and stammered out “B-b-because she’s a girl, she d-d-didn’t expect to get hit like that…sir. Not everyone will treat a fight fairly. She needed t-t-to expect the u-u-unexpected. We could all see what was going to happen, but Denee didn’t and she over extended herself…I’m s-s-sorry sir! I didn’t mean to…” She cut off.

Waving a hand dismissively, Rikkal gestured over to Denee. “Do not be sorry, Carrie, you are correct. I value honesty.  She should have seen it coming and we will discuss it later.” These last words he directed towards Denee. She felt a flush come to her cheeks as her brother held her gaze. With a slight shake of his head, he clapped his hands together and turned to back to the students.

“I found little wrong with the first two rounds” he remarked. “The fighting was fierce and well-disciplined on both sides, yet the final result tells the tale. You can have the upper hand all through a match, yet still find yourselves on the losing side, and that can often be considered…fatal. Remember that.” There were nods of assent around the gathered students. Rikkal’s lips quirked into a smile once more before finishing.

“Excellent. We have done good work here today. Well, Traval and Carrie, you can both have the afternoon to yourselves. See the quartermaster about your silver. I am feeling generous this morning. I shall also inform Master Clay of your absence. I expect you both bright and early tomorrow however…am I understood?”

A chorus of ‘Yes my Lord’ greeted this announcement. Satisfied, Rikkal addressed the rest of his students. “The rest of you have Archery this afternoon, so I suggest you make the most of what is left of the morning. You are dismissed.”

Breathing a sigh of relief, Denee walked across the arena to join her brother as he turned his attention to the young man only now just regaining his feet. The crowd made for the exits, talking excitedly amongst themselves. Across Carle’s cheek was a foul looking green poultice, and his nose was wrinkling with the smell already. Raising his head to meet Rikkal’s gaze, he pressed fist to heart before saying “My Lord”.

Regarding the man before him, Rikkal said quietly “You fought well today, Carle. Your improvement these last few months has been impressive.” As the young man swelled with pride at the compliment, the Lord Commander added “But, I am becoming concerned about this streak of arrogance you are showing. Do you think yourself better than your peers? Do you consider their abilities inferior? I wonder.”

The grin slid off Carle’s face at Rikkal’s tone. Standing straighter, he cleared his throat before replying. “Well, not exactly sir - At least not all of them anyway. Ferris is still far better with the sword, battle-axe and the spear, although I best him with the bow by a margin. As for the rest of the Level Fours…” his eyes slid over to where Denee was standing casually a few paces away, and he smirked. “Yes sir. Far superior, as you have just yourself witnessed”

Laughing aloud, Denee took a threatening step forward and growled “I’ll give you another cut, if you like Carle. It’d be no trouble at all. In fact, how about now?” Just as she began to slide her knife from her sleeve, Rikkal’s hand clamped down hard on her wrist. He gave her a warning look, before turning back to Carle.

Frowning, Rikkal glanced pointedly at the poultice on Carle’s cheek and said “You appear to have a very short memory. You did not get that cut rolling in the dirt like a pig, boy. You let your guard down, you gloated and you paid the price.” Cutting off Carle’s objections with a raised finger, the Lord Commander drew himself up to his full height, towering over the younger man as he continued, his voice calm but unyielding. “In fact, whilst I readily admit you displayed admirable cunning to turn a losing situation to your advantage, before that you were hard pressed indeed. I think we will spar on the morrow, Carle. The best of five rounds, yes? A little lesson in humility is in order. Now, away with you and make sure your blade is well honed…”

Blanching, Carle’s face turned deathly pale. He hoarsely managed to grate out a “Yes sir, on the morrow” before saluting again and stumbling off in the direction of the weapons stand to remove his soiled gear. He passed Denee on the way and pointedly refused to look in her direction. With a casual shrug, she came to stand by her brother. “The little shit” She growled “I’ll have a boot sized bruise across my belly come the morning. I should have cut him harder…well, that can be for next time”

Grunting, Rikkal started to walk towards the tunnel that led out of the training arena and towards the quarters set aside for the King’s Masters of Weapons. Waving for his sister to follow him, they walked in silence past the great steel doors that led off towards the lesser smithy. Only the sound of their boots could be heard as the earthen path gave way to white marble tiles. Presently they both emerged from the tunnel again into bright sunshine, and taking a left turn they headed towards a long single tiered building two hundred paces distant. Like most structures and buildings within the city, it was primarily a fortress. Above a solid wooden door two feet thick and banded in iron, rose thirty feet of stark granite walls. Battlements crowned the structure giving the building an imposing look. Underneath the city were tunnels and passages that led into the mountains – a last form of refuge, if it were ever needed. The City of Salen was considered one of the most fearsome in the Eastern World, yet there was beauty here also. Further into the city, the King’s Boulevard was lined with Maple Tree’s where folk could recline at their leisure. Streets split off from the main boulevard like tributaries from a river to parks and gardens. Yet the great Square of Hakar at the end of the King’s Boulevard outshone them all. Two square acres of marble walkways and bridges criss-crossed the most fragrant gardens to be found this side of the Aspinal Mountains. Streams and ponds dotted the square, with birds and many forms of wildlife. If one continued along the pathway they would come upon three enormous fountains that had been wrought into the likenesses of Salen’s founding lords. Lord Commander Lorral, who had founded the ancient Hakish Academy stood sentinel, his face stern and unyielding, a torrent of clear water streaming from the tip of his upraised sword. Behind and to either side, King Hakar and Queen Rachelle gazed down benevolently upon any petitioners to the Palace.  Long centuries of warfare between two of its neighbours – Kordovia and Stakoria – had hardened its people and given them a grim bearing, yet – like the city; their interior could not be tarnished.

Reaching the doorway of the Academy quarters, Rikkal pushed open the door and headed inside. They entered a wide, well lit corridor that showed more evidence of the martial nature of its people. Murder holes lined the walls and stout oak doors lead off to the right and left in the direction of the servant’s lodgings and kitchens. On the walls for every five paces a bracket held a burning torch. In between the torches, portraits had been hung by the Royal Artist; each depicting a different scene in the life of the most famous Lord Commander’s that Salen had known throughout the long years. Hard men and women, all with a stern duty to King and Country. The scenes ranged from the first Lord, Lorral, kneeling to offer King Hakar his services, to Lady Katern leading the charge that broke the lines of the armies of Koren in the Salen Pass. Lord Caze - who had been responsible for the single rebellion against the Throne to oust the vicious tyrant King Jeffer – had the largest portrait of all. Rikkal strode past, looking neither left nor right as he reached the end of the corridor and pushed open the heavy oak door. They emerged into a large brightly lit room, sunlight streaming in through the small windows to the right. This was the common room, where the Lord Commander and his Weapons Masters would gather at the days end. Here they discussed their students, their training and the news from the city and the world outside. The room was by far the most lavish within the residence. Five armchairs surrounded a large mahogany table set atop a rug that had come all the way from Ios. Doors lead off from the room to the personal chambers of the houses’ Masters. One door led deeper into the house to the pantry, where there was a set of brick stairs that ran up to a trap door that emerged out onto the roof. Great store of arrows, weapons, armour and foodstuffs were stockpiled here in the event of a siege. It was Denee’s favourite building in the city. Usually, she preferred the outdoors or places of solitude, but she cherished these moments alone with her brother.

On the wall directly opposite the entrance, between two doors leading towards private sleeping chambers, a log fire sat banked waiting to drive away the chill of the mountain evenings. Late summer snows were not unheard of in Salen. Crossing the room to the fireplace, Rikkal gently gave a pull to a small rope that connected to a bell in the kitchens.

Taking a seat in one of the armchairs, Rikkal gestured for Denee to sit herself opposite him. After a few moments, the door they had entered by swung open again to admit Harris, the aging chief of staff. Bowing deeply to the Lord Commander, his smile took in Denee as he addressed Rikkal politely. Originally born in Greatholme Harbour nearly sixty years past, he had retained the thick accent familiar with those that plied the rough waters of the Spirash Ocean

“Will it be the the usual for you, my Lord?” He enquired.

At a nod from Rikkal, Harris turned to Denee. “And for you my Lady, I have acquired fresh bread, bacon and blood sausages just this past hour. There is also a blueberry pie I have baked just this morning. Further, I have a rather fine apple brandy that I am reliably informed goes wonderfully. ” he finished with a hint of smile.

Laughing out loud, Denee clapped her hands together. “Ahh, Harris!” She exclaimed.  “ I swear, if you weren’t old enough to be my Grandfather I’d marry you this instant. Make it a small glass though, please. I’ll need a steady hand for archery this afternoon and I fear I’m already in enough trouble with my brother here”

Bowing deeply again, Harris backed out of the room, closing the door quietly behind him. Sitting in silence, Rikkal leaned back into his chair and gazed up at the beams criss-crossing the ceiling, seemingly deep in thought. Denee took out her belt knife and began trimming her fingernails, humming softly. A few minutes went by as Harris returned with a tray carrying a pot of wild berry tea and the small brandy. Placing them on the table between Rikkal and his sister, he departed the room once more.

Reaching for her glass, Denee took a sip and regarded her brother over the rim of her cup. Rikkal Stone was still a half legendary figure to her, even now after the five years she had lived in Salen with him. She had been three years old when Rikkal had ran away from their family home. Having been born and bred in a small fishing village around ten miles outside of Bondis, her childhood had been hard and cruel. Until her brother came back for her, that is. Eleven years he had been gone and it was rumoured around the barracks and taverns of the city that he had travelled North and East, fighting in the wars there. He had joined the ranks of students in the Hakish Academy some eight years back and his rise had been meteoric, becoming the youngest Lord Commander for over a century.

Even to this day, Denee had no idea how he had known to come back for her when he did. His arrival had been more than timely, but that was something she did not like to dwell on too much. Her thoughts of those days were twisted and bitter, and Rikkal was the one chink of light in a past littered with fear and darkness. She was nineteen now and had risen steadily through the ranks to a Fourth Level initiate. She was in large part content with her life, yet she yearned to see more of the world. So far her experiences were confined to the village she had grown up in and the high, proud walls of the mountain fortress of Salen. The journey in between had been one of grief, and terror that had prevented her from taking much notice of their route. She had vowed that one day she would change that.

Taking a deep breath, she muttered into her cup “Well, best to get it out of the way before the food arrives.” Raising her voice, she said to Rikkal. “Brother. Yes, I’m an ass. Yes, I should ‘ve seen what that little shit was going to do. I’m sorry, I know you expect better of me.”

Lowering his head to meet her steady gaze, Rikkal gave her a pained look. There was no trace of tiredness in his grey eyes, and his dark brown hair hung loose over his shoulders.
 
“Denee, I often fear I am too harsh with you. Do you know why that is? No, I suppose you do not” He mused, gazing upwards once more. “Truth be told, the way you fought today was admirable and far exceeded my hopes for you when I brought you here. You seem to have reached a breakthrough these past few weeks. Carle is no slouch, arrogant fool though he may be, and yet he has never so much as recorded a touch against Ferris, for all of his boasting of ‘besting him with the bow’” He snorted. 
“You however, have left proof of your prowess upon him not once, but thrice. I should not let myself forget that and neither should you.”

Blushing faintly, Denee lowered her eyes. Her brother was always very sparing with praise when it came to her. He was a lot harder, and far more demanding than he was with the other students. Denee didn’t mind as it gave her the opportunity to learn and she saw her brother’s strictness as a peculiar form of caring. She could never tell him how much she appreciated his confidence in her to make her own way in the world. He rarely let his guard down around anyone, but she was one of the few privileged to see that compassionate side to his character – rare that it was.

Just then, Harris arrived with their late morning meal on a silver serving tray. Quickly and efficiently laying the table for two, he placed platters piled high with bacon, eggs, sausages and bread baked just that morning, with fresh churned butter and preserves. For Rikkal, there was his usual morning meal of oatcakes, cheese and flatbread. He was stingier than a merchant when it came to food, yet the same could not be said of Denee. Rubbing her hands together gleefully, she began to serve herself as Harris once more bowed himself from the room. Whilst her brother was a large, imposing man well over six feet tall – for all that he ate like food was merely a nuisance rather than a pleasure – Denee herself was just the opposite. Whip slender and lean; she was all muscle and hard sinews that gave a misleading appearance to the unwary. Her brown hair was cut short just above the shoulders – she hated having to tie it back when wearing a helmet, so she had taken the decision to do away with the bothersome stuff. She would have shaved the entire lot off had Rikkal allowed it.

For a while they sat in companionable silence observing the necessities of eating. At the end of their meal, whilst Denee was half-heartedly wondering if a second glass of brandy would impair her archery that much, Rikkal cleared his throat and broke the silence, making her lift her head curiously.

“You should know that the King is sending out scouts and riders within the coming weeks. We expect them to go as far as Kordovia to inspect the movements of the armies encamped there. Stakoria is too close and present to our minds for us to be worried about them taking us unawares, though I have been hearing disturbing rumours lately… well, that doesn’t concern you, yet. This new flare up in hostilities has us cautious, however. Kordovia is just far enough away that our information is ever uncertain. The King requests that two level fours accompany the scouts for seasoning…”

Denee was in the process of leisurely savouring a large slice of bread, piled with apricot jam, when these words caught her off guard, making her choke loudly. Her choking gave way to violent coughing as Rikkal rose from his seat to pound her between the shoulder blades. For the second time that morning, Denee struggled to regain her breath and gaped at her brother as he resumed his seat. Eventually she gasped out “Two Level Fours?! Why two? Why any? The King has never sent any on such a mission before now.”

“Why any indeed?” her brother mused. “There is of course wisdom in this, however. It is as good a method as any of tempering men and women as I know – better than some, anyway” He finished with a twist of his mouth. Denee knew what he meant, and kept her silence. The practice of sending the level fours to border forts for seasoning had been established long before her brother’s time. As the threat of war was never too distant, it was considered a solid – yet dangerous - method of blooding young men and women. Rikkal despised it and called it a callous waste of promise and potential. It was rumoured he had called it foolhardy to the King’s face. Often it resulted in the Academy’s best and brightest dead before their time, and that was never acceptable in her brother’s eyes.

Yet when the King commands, those sworn to serve must obey. Denee felt a tingle of excitement. Other than herself and Ferris, there were three more level fours in the Academy. Carle - the arrogant prancing ass of a man – along with Durran and Traydus made up the five. Denee was the only woman to have risen so far in the last year. Any one of them had been ready for a mission for some time now, but the break out in hostilities had put paid to any plans on that front. But now the King had obviously deemed the time was ripe.

Hesitantly, fearing the answer, Denee asked her brother cautiously. “Who is making the decision? Will it be the King or you? And when are they expected to leave?”

Threading his hands together, Rikkal leaned back into his chair once more and gazed up at the ceiling. Softly, he replied “It is to be my choice, yet the King has asked that I do not delay. He must have a decision by the week’s end and that leaves me only three days. The patrol rides in just under a month and the recruits must spend that time with the rest of those the King and Council deems fit to send. The party will not be large – ten, maybe twelve at most - and I imagine they will each take separate paths to Kordovia, so time is of the essence.”

Denee held her breath and kept her gaze fixed on her brother’s stern features. After a moment he took a deep breath and continued.

“However, I have already made my decision. Carle is too arrogant, too wayward and would only be a danger to those unfortunate to be sent with him. Durran is excellent with the bow, and solid with all his weapons, yet what he has in martial prowess he sorely lacks in tactics and mental capacity. Ferris, of course is a given. He has been ready for some time and he far outstrips the talents of the rest of you. He needs this, lest he begin to stagnate. Which of course leaves just you and Traydus and – “

“– But it must be me!” Denee cut in eagerly. “There isn’t too much between us, I know that, yet I need to get out of this damned city! This is my chance to see places I’ve only dreamed of and –“
Holding up a hand to cut her off, Rikkal continued “If you had waited for me to finish instead of barging straight in” he said with a small smile “then you would have heard that I have chosen you to go. Traydus has unfortunately been ill these last few days, and he does not seem to have quite recovered his strength. The King has commanded that you be ready within a month, and that means extra training with the soldiers in the barracks on fieldwork, woodcraft and survival in the wild. Yes, I know you have attempted these things” he said, catching the look on Denee’s face. “Yet you have only practiced them in trials and mock missions within the Academy, under little to no danger or pressure. We push you hard, yes, but not as hard as the real soldiers and field commanders will. Traydus needs time to recover, so that leaves you, which obviously delights you – and as your brother, that worries me”

Denee did feel a momentary pang at his last words, yet that couldn’t drown out her excitement. Infiltrating enemy territory, living wild and off the land, danger and adventure – these were all things she had longed for. She grinned at her brother and laughed aloud as he shook his head. “When do I have to leave for the soldiers barracks?” She asked breathlessly.

“You and Ferris are assigned to Captain Preya on the day after tomorrow.” He replied. “She will take over your training in the coming weeks, and if she deems you adequate you will depart within the month. Now, enough talk. The morning is wearing on and you have archery practice to attend. Be off with you – and keep this to yourself until the King announces it.” He added as an afterthought.

Bounding to her feet with a cry of delight, Denee rushed around the table and threw her arms around her brother’s neck. “I do love you, Rikkal. “She whispered fiercely.  “I promise I’ll make you proud of me.” And with that she turned and sprinted across the room, heaved open the door and raced off down the corridor. She had just enough time whilst the rest of the students were at lunch to make a few personal visits of her own and see her few friends throughout the city. Unable to contain her smile, she hurtled out through the door at the end of the corridor and headed off towards her private quarters. The aches and pains of the morning were forgotten as she raced off into the city.

Back in the common room, the Lord Commander poured himself another cup of wild berry tea and drank quietly, savouring the tart taste. The rumours the scouting patrols and merchants had been bringing to the city recently were unsettling, but the problems appeared to come from the north and west, towards Stakoria. With luck, a trip east and south would pass without incident and Denee would return in a few months or so complaining about nothing more exciting than saddle sores, poor food and boredom.

Abruptly, Rikkal let out a bark of laughter, draining his cup in one swift swallow. Denee was attracted to trouble as surely as the sun rises. He pitied anyone that managed to get in her way. 

Tuesday 19 May 2015

Game of Thrones Season Five, Episode Six - Unbowed, Unbent, Unbroken.

Game of Thrones - both the novels by George RR Martin and the TV adaptation by David Benioff and Daniel Weiss - has never shied away from controversial and often shocking scenes and scenarios. One could argue that the lure of both these forms of media lie in the ability to challenge and broadcast scenes so far from the norm.

However, last night (or over the weekend depending on your time zone) the TV adaptation once again included unnecessary sexual violence in an episode. This makes the third high profile instance of rape in the series, where the TV show has deliberately deviated from consensual sex in the source material, to a disturbing - and frankly - unnecessarily shocking depiction of rape.

The first instance was Daenery's Targaryen on her wedding night to Kal Drogo of the Dothraki, way back in Season One. In the novels, Daenery's is terrified and facing a future so far removed from her current life that it is a wonder she had not collapsed out of fear. All she see's are strange people, who live brutal lives and she dreads the future ahead. When it comes to her wedding night and the consummation of her marriage, she discovers that her imposing husband Drogo, is in fact a calm and caring man, who goes out of his way to make his young bride feel at ease in what is clearly a highly emotional situation for her. She responds by initiating their lovemaking.

In the show, this scene was bizarrely changed to have Kal Drogo raping Daenery's from behind. Numerous times she said no, whilst Drogo carried on regardless. We did not know it then, but it has in fact set the tone and standard to which Game of Thrones has been known to their audience over the years.

The second instance was between Jaime Lannister and his sister, Cersei. The scene in the novels has Jaime returning from his journey with Brienne in the Riverlands, to find his son Joffrey dead and his brother Tyrion imprisoned and accused of regicide. Cersei feels alone and the appearance of Jaime - who she admits is the other half of her soul - brings a lot of emotion to the fore. Jaime and Cersei proceed to have sex - entirely consensual, once more - in the Great Sept. The scene is initiated and encouraged by Cersei and the way in which it is written completely lays out the twisted relationship they both share.

However, yet again the TV show changes this, for absolutely no reason that I can see - or have yet to see. Jaime literally drags Cersei to the ground beside the rotting body of their son, and he forces himself upon her. Cersei says NO - again, numerous times. It left a sour taste in the mouth for many viewers - and especially for readers who were familiar with the scene from the novels.

Which brings us to Sansa Stark and Ramsay Snow. In the novels, Jeyne Poole - who many may remember as Sansa's closest friend from Season One - is dressed up and made to act the part of Arya Stark, who went missing at the end of the first novel. Jeyne's story in itself is one of the saddest and most desperately uncomfortable character arcs in Martin's entire series of novels. I would go so far as to say that it is the most horrifying, for me personally. Jeyne is essentially the mirror image of what would have happened to Sansa had she not been a high born lady from a wealthy, strong family. Jeyne is taken by Littlefinger (Peter Baelish) on the command of Cersei. Littlefinger gives Jeyne over to one of his brothels and for a girl of barely 14/15 years of age, you can only imagine the torment she had to go through and the things she was forced to see and participate in.

Further to this, when she is sent North to be Ramsay Bolton's bride, her life takes an even more horrifying turn for the worse. Ramsay is cruel and sadistic and he takes great pleasure in terrorizing his new wife. Through all of this, Theon is present. He is witness to the senseless depravity that Ramsay inflicts upon a young girl that Theon knows is not Arya. He knows exactly who Jeyne is, but he is scared - with good reason, considering what Ramsay has done to him - to act. Eventually, he reluctantly helps Jeyne to escape and it is the moment that many fans view as being the act that helps to steer him away from his Reek persona and towards truly being Theon once more.

Now, in the TV series, they have made the change to merge Sansa's story line with Jeyne's. Budget and character demands necessitated this - I fully understand that. Most of the time, I understand the changes that the TV series must make. Martin's work is so vast, so epic, that it must be adapted and streamlined for a TV audience. I get that, I truly do.

What I take issue with is that for four seasons - and five books - Sansa Stark has been on one of the most remarkable and engrossing character progressions I have had the pleasure to read or witness. She has gone from an empty headed girl, to a strong, intelligent and independent woman. Yet, in the space of one scene last night, the writers completely and utterly negated the entire arc that they had been carefully nurturing for four years. It is a damning fact that when HBO feel they need a shock factor involving women, they inevitably fall back on rape. There was no need to include this scene - indeed, they left out all the character building plot lines from Jeyne's story and instead kept the most horrifying and illogical part of it all.

Now, I am a writer. Not a famous one - or even a particularly great one - yet write I do. I am also human, so the very idea of rape shocks and appalls me - as it should shock and appall all right thinking people. Yet, unfortunately, we don't live in a world where 100% of the population are right thinking, moral people. Over the last 48 hours I have been involved - and have read - many different discussions regarding rape on a Facebook page dedicated to A Song of Ice and Fire. There are over 41,000 members in this group, which obviously leads to many different opinions on many different subjects. Yet rape - which should be one of the subjects the world universally agrees on to be wrong - is often dismissed as feminism. Even worse, people (mostly men admittedly) make apologies for it as being 'not a big deal'.

Well, you're wrong. Dead wrong. Rarely do I feel more disgusted about my gender than when I inevitably read through a discussion on rape. We live in a world of 'banter' and LAD accounts that subtly teach young men that it is essentially okay to objectify women. The people on those forums and the Facebook group who believe this, often choose to cry that "it's just fiction, it's not real life - get over it". These people are the issue. They cry that we should not be offended, that we should hide away and 'get over our feminism'. Yet answer me this: Why does feminism exist? It shouldn't do, if we take the time to truly think about it. Feminism is an idea and a movement that was born out of hundreds and thousands of years of women being viewed as second class citizens. Take a minute to think why there is no such word as 'Menism or Masculinism'. It's because for so long there was such a gulf in equality that it took many strong females sacrificing their lives and campaigning for justice before they were heard. Do not dismiss those sacrifices, because they are evident every day.

Yet to all those who continue to rail against, you are wrong. Especially regarding comments that center on ignoring real life issues. Almost all great Fantasy and Fiction novels take inspiration from real life issues. Many authors chose to write Fiction to challenge and discuss issues that are taking place in everyday life. This is what reading and writing exposes people to. In fantasy, it may often be only subtly hinted at, yet the message is clear and there for all those willing to see. From George RR Martin, to JRR Tolkien and even to some extremes like Terry Goodkind - who possibly went too far with his musings - every author strives to challenge a trope or stereotype. It is a fundamental cornerstone of all fiction. Even JK Rowling with the Harry Potter books looked deeply at segregation and discrimination and persecution of those who are different.

My own views on Fantasy center around the freedom it gives us. The freedom to explore and push the boundaries of our imaginations that can be considered impossible in the real world. There should be no subject on this planet that is considered too taboo for reasoned debate and discussion. It is only by discussing and railing against such views that we begin to make the world better. For those that ignore such issues, you become part of the problem. A brief look through history tells us that if everyone went through life not caring, then we would still be banging rocks together to make fire. In fact, the fire would probably just be a pipe dream.

So, how does this relate to the TV adaptation of Game of Thrones? In artistic rendition and quality of writing.

Firstly, rape is never okay, regardless of the circumstances or situation. It is the sensitivity with which it is treated and broadcast that makes the difference - especially in those artistic terms. This is what Benioff and Weiss have got so completely wrong. The scene with Sansa was a needless addition that totally destroyed their previous work. A strong willed woman was built up, then ruthlessly cut down - for no reason.

The irony of it all to me is that the title of the episode was Unbowed, Unbent, Unbroken - the words of House Martell. It was exactly what Sansa had become through all her torments with the Lannisters - until Benioff and Weiss went down their tried and tested female 'shock factor', that is.

The only surprise in all of this, is that any of us were truly surprised.

Chris Morton

Sunday 29 March 2015

The Adept Chronicles - Chapter One - Jerrian.

“To catch a rat, you need an elaborate trap, riddled with incentives. 
To catch a priest, you just need a good argument.”
Old Arossi proverb.

Chapter One.

“This is a good plan, Jerrian” Makar said. “It’ll be fun to watch, too. Especially your part!”

Jerrian glanced sideways at his friend, and shook his head ruefully. Makar was small for his age – he had seen nineteen summers, yet for all of that he still seemed but a child rather than his elder by over a year. His black hair was slicked to his forehead from the incessant heat, but his mouth was set in a manic grin. Dark brown eyes sparkled with anticipation as he gazed out from their concealed rooftop hiding place, onto the baking street below. The walkways of the Aros city markets were jammed with people, even at this early hour. Hawkers and merchants cried their wares, children danced nimbly through the throngs after their parents and peasants and nobles alike were out for a mid-morning stroll. Every now and again Jerrian’s eyes would snag on a blue robed priest of Torra moving in their own bubble of calm, folk of all ranks stepping respectfully aside, before closing in once more.

“Ikean’s tits, it’s hot though, isn’t it?” Makar burst out. “Awful day to be wearing leather. I’d trade two dozen whores and a bottle of plum cider for a bit of rain about now.” He absently scrubbed at his forehead, as sweat trickled down his nut brown skin.

Jerrian chuckled to himself quietly, once again surprised at Makar’s lack of a filter. He said whatever came into his head, without thought for consequence or opinion. By rights, he should have been one of the worst initiates in the Temple. He whored, he drank, he swore constantly and he disappeared from the Temple grounds for days on end, always returning with an unbelievable tale to tell. Yet somehow he remained high in the good graces of the Priesthood. Jerrian applied himself to his studies with a single minded ferocity, yet he could never match his friends’ achievements. What came easily to Makar, Jerrian had to fight tooth and nail for. He was hoping to earn a surname this year before his eighteenth birthmonth, yet he was worried that he would fail the trials and be forced to wait until the following autumn. Makar – who was already known throughout the Temple district and surrounding villages as Lightfingers – had passed his own trials with ease just over a year ago.

Shaking his head to dispel his thoughts, Jerrian gazed down on the bustling market place and considered the plan ahead. It had taken seven days of surveillance, observation and one inspired idea –which he was still not sure would work - to reach this point. Their target was a well-guarded merchant stall situated in a medium sized oval plaza directly below. The walkways and crisscrossing streets, avenues and alleys made a vast tangled web connecting each plaza to another. There was the Great Eastern food market, where caravans from Makran, Cian and as far away as Proctor brought their horrifically spicy wares for sale. At The North Eastern Military Market – which was by far the most heavily guarded – you could buy good Salen steel and Kordovian armour - if you had the funds. Such luxuries were not cheap and tended to be reserved for the nobility and their household soldiers. However, it was the smallest, most unassuming market that interested Jerrian the most.

Situated in the very centre of the complex, the Market of Trillam held a perverse fascination for Jerrian. Trillam was the only City in the world that was able to directly trade with its wondrous neighbour to the West, Rakatan. When he had been a boy, he had harboured dreams of one day joining the legendary Adepts of Rakatan. He would have been a Healer, of course, marked out by his lightning blue eyes and free to travel Dekar helping the common folk and performing wonders. Yet, the Years of Awakening had come and gone. Jerrian’s eyes had remained the same light grey they had always been, and no unnatural occurrences had ever marked him as different. That same year, his parents had given him up to the care of the local Sanctuary of Torra – being the youngest son - and he had eventually found his way to the main Temple in Cleval. Jerrian’s disappointment had been great, but he strongly believed in making the best of a situation. A Priest of Torra was considered a respectable pursuit for a young man and there was plenty of chance to see the world.

Ordinarily, Jerrian considered himself to be fairly law-abiding – at least in comparison to Makar. However, an overheard conversation between two of his tutors the previous week had snagged his curiosity enough to force him to break the rules. It was not every day an opportunity to get your hands on two bottles of Dream Serum came along.

“You remember what it is we’re looking for, Makar?” Jerrian said. “Once the guards are distracted, the whole thing is in your hands. I won’t be able to help you.”

Makar barked a laugh and rubbed his hands together with glee. “You worry too much, Jer. I’ve always said so” He remarked lightly. “Two red crystal vials, both sealed with white wax stoppers. You just leave it to me. They would see your lumbering frame coming a mile off”

He smiled over at his friend to take the sting from his words, yet they were true enough. Despite being over a year younger, Jerrian was almost six feet tall and a full foot taller than Makar - and well-built to boot. His blonde hair and fair complexion made him stand out in a Southern city like Aros, where almost all the locals were black haired and dark.

Jerrian took a few deep, calming breaths and glanced up at the position of the sun. It was nearing midday, almost time. He rose from his crouch and began to critically check his attire. He wore a turquoise silk waistcoat, over a yellow and white striped vest – also silk. His red trousers and soft leather sandals completed the garish outfit. His unruly blonde hair had been slicked back with scented oils and fastened at the nape of his neck with a fine ivory broach. He was the very image of a self-important young man from the insatiable pleasure houses of Aros. He felt horribly conspicuous. He just hoped it was a convincing enough disguise to fool four guards and a merchant. Makar had stolen most of the outfit, yet the broach was Jerrian’s own – a parting gift from his elder sister, Kaya. He wondered idly what she would think of him if she could see him now.

Probably make some jest I wouldn’t understand, before laughing at me and running off he thought sourly.

“You look fine, Jer, believe me. I’ve spent plenty of fun filled hours in those houses to know what the boys look like – although my tastes are completely different, you understand” He finished with a laugh, flowing to his feet and dusting off the red soil on his trousers. He was clad entirely in drab tan coloured, tight fitting leather, perfectly designed to fade into the dull brown brick walls of the city. Makar was quick, and this plan relied heavily on his speed and Jerrian’s barely passable acting skills.

Taking a last deep breath, Jerrian looked across at his friend.

“Okay then, let’s go. Meet you at the top of the abandoned tower in the Faith District in just over an hour”

It was going to be an interesting afternoon, indeed.


Thirty minutes later Jerrian found himself walking confidently along the cramped walkway towards the Trillam Market. A slight bubble of space surrounded him as he walked, with people on all sides drawing out of his way with faintly disapproving expressions on their faces. He had expected it, yet it was harder than he thought to control his temper. Prejudice. It was everywhere, regardless of which village, city or province you came from. During his stints surveying the routines of the merchant and his guards, Jerrian had seen such reactions first hand. Two women – clearly whores, yet also clearly only interested in each other – had been driven away by the merchant and his hired thugs. Yet only after both had rebuffed advances from the oily man behind the stall.

It was this behaviour that had given him his idea. An idea that could potentially backfire and see him seriously hurt. Aros was a wonderful city, culturally diverse where people far and wide gathered. Yet for all of that, it still held some alarming blind spots. The thought that he was actively encouraging people to be openly angry with him made him more than a little nervous, yet the risk was worth it, he hoped. Dream Serum… Jerrian kept the prize firmly at the front of his mind and ignored the contemptuous glances from passers-by.

Fifty paces away, the walkway spilled out into the oval complex. Stalls lined the perimeter, filled to bursting with fine wines, fruits, medicines and other delicacies that could only be obtained from Trillam. The smells assaulted his nostrils, and his stomach rumbled uncomfortably, reminding him that he had only had a half bowl of porridge that morning. Yet it was the centre that interested Jerrian, no matter how tempted to stop for some food he might be. He could see the brightly coloured stall, awash in red and blue velvets directly ahead.

Summoning his courage, Jerrian broke free of the crowded walkway and stepped out into the plaza. He was about twenty paces away, when suddenly he was roughly jostled off balance by a passing peasant. The man had a face like an anvil, a completely bald head and was twice again as wide as Jerrian. Reflexively, he turned around to apologise to the man - even though it was not his fault – and received a face full of spit for his trouble.

“Have tha’ yer dirty lil’ swallower, yer” The man growled threateningly, leaning menacingly towards him. His breath held the rancid taint of days old garlic, and the slight slur to his speech told him that he had had more than his fair share of ale that morning.

Calmly – though inside he was seething – Jerrian removed a white cloth from the breast pocket of his waistcoat, and carefully wiped his face. All the time, his grey eyes never left the other man’s pockmarked face. He noted how he slumped slightly to one side, and how his piggy little eyes squinted at him unsteadily. He was well past tipsy and far further into the reaches of drunkenness than he’d thought. One of the first things you were taught at the Temple of Torra, was how to deal with angry and unreasonable people. Faith and the trappings of religion were not for everyone, and although Cleval may be the home of both the Temples of Torra and Ikean, outside the country matters were often very different.

Jerrian casually finished wiping his face, before deliberately folding up the cloth and placing it back inside his breast pocket. Hitching a pleasant smile onto his face with difficultly, he took one step backwards – moving himself out of arms reach – before slowly raising both hands in a placating gesture.

“My apologies, Goodman, if I have given any offence. I assure you it was not my intention” He said soothingly, instinctively slipping into his Temple idiom. It was a form of speech the priesthood specifically used when faced with often hostile and aggressive civilians. It had better work on this bloody ale filled swine, he thought.

The man frowned suspiciously at him, and looked him up and down disdainfully. Jerrian watched as his face began to redden furiously, and realised too late he had made a mistake. He groaned inwardly as the man’s hands curled into fists, and he took two aggressive steps forward, thrusting his chin into his face.

“Think yer better tha’ me, do yer? Eh? Eh?” He growled. “Think yer can get away with’ talkin’ to me like one of Torra’s own? Yer, who fucks men and then dares to wander this holy city, bold as yer like? Nah, not if I ‘ave anythin’ to say abou’ it!”

The man’s stench was overpowering. Jerrian found himself reflexively gagging. He caught a faint whiff of excrement and hurriedly smoothed the expression of disgust from his face. He could think of no way out of this situation without it ending in violence. It also severely ruined his plans for the Dream Serum now that he was caught up in a confrontation. Frantically, he cast around the plaza for a friendly face. Every eye he caught, a smug, satisfied expression gazed back at him. The Market had come to a standstill, merchants and buyers alike had all turned to watch the exchange, their eyes alight with curiosity. Jerrian took another hasty step back and caught his heel on a loose rock in the dirt. He went sprawling backwards, arms wind milling, and landed with a thump as the plaza erupted in laughter around him.

Red in the face with embarrassment, Jerrian scrambled to his feet. Vainly he tried to beat the dust from his clothes as the odious man in front of him gasped and choked in malicious glee. The aggressive tension had evaporated and Jerrian managed a weak smile, silently relieved that he appeared to have avoided getting into a fight. He gave the fellow a rather shaky bow, before turning and unsteadily striding off in the direction of the opposite walkway. He would have to rethink his plan and maybe revisit it tomorrow.

He had only taken a dozen steps before something soft and heavy hit him in the back of the head with a splat. He lurched forwards, just managing to catch his balance, as the laughter erupted around him once more, louder than before. Reaching behind to feel the back of his head, he felt the sticky remnants of some kind of fruit clinging to his hair. Cursing to himself, he turned round to see the man who had jostled him off balance standing casually near a fruit stall, nonchalantly tossing another dwarf melon from hand to hand. The owner of the stall did not seem to mind in the slightest that her wares were being used for target practice. Instead, her eyes darted back and forth between Jerrian and the man, as if she were watching a show.

“Didn’ say yer could leave, filth.” He hollered. “Nobody insults tha Holy city and gets t’ walk free” One the last word, he launched the melon in his hand. Jerrian twisted to the side as the green and white globe soared past him to land with a splat a few paces away. Shaking his head, he turned away once more. Don’t encourage him, he thought. Don’t lose your temper!

The atmosphere around the plaza had regained its aggressive edge, and Jerrian could feel the tension mounting as he hurriedly picked up his pace. He passed the market stall where the merchant from Trillam and his guards watched passively. The merchant sneered as Jerrian walked past, before turning his head to spit in the dust. As he neared the opposite walkway, the jeering voice called out to him once more, this time making him slam to a halt.
“This your pretty lil’ trinket, girly?” The oaf called, his tone oozing false concern.

Jerrian turned slowly on the spot, his temper rising. The fool stood ten paces away, holding aloft his sister’s broach. It must have been dislodged from his hair when the first globe of fruit had hit him. The white ivory glinted in the sun and Jerrian felt a hot flush pass through his body as the man gloated over his prize. Without realising what he was doing, he began to slowly advance towards him. His hands curled up into fists and the crowd grew suddenly silent as they felt the mood subtly change.

The old fool did not notice a thing, as he continued to examine the broach in his hands, his back to Jerrian. White ivory was rare and expensive, a man like him would never hope to own such a piece in his lifetime. Jerrian could understand the fascination, but that did not stop him. His temper had boiled over, and rage blinded him. Reaching the fellow, he grabbed him by the shoulder, jerking him round. The man turned with a grunt of surprise, the corners of his mouth beginning to turn up in a scowl before Jerrian’s left fist crashed straight into his face with the force of a hammer hitting a nail. He felt rotted teeth break beneath his fist, as the man reeled backwards with a cry, landing with a crash in the dirt. Striding forwards, Jerrian placed a boot on his chest as he tried to rise, and slammed him back onto the ground, pinning him in place. A swift kick to the midriff made him curl up with a groan, the broach dropping from his hand as he protected his stomach. Jerrian’s hand darted out to retrieve the broach, before turning away once more. He had tried to be civil and it had not worked. He had tried to walk away, and had been forced to react.

It seemed he was made to find trouble.

Without a backwards glance, he marched past the suddenly silent and dispersing crowd, straight past the merchant guards and their stall, who were all holding their spears in readiness, and out into the market circuit. People hurriedly moved out of his way after a quick look at his face, and he disappeared into the crowds. A glance at the sun told him his hour was long up, and he would have no chance of coming back another day now. He could try a dozen different disguises, but he would always be recognised after today’s exploits. Dream Serum was a rare and precious thing – something he had longed to own for years. Yet the ivory broach of his favourite sister was irreplaceable.

Foolish bloody oaf he thought angrily. He was not sure if he meant the pitiful wretch groaning in agony far behind him, or himself.


Gazing out restlessly from the top of the broken tower in the Faith District, Makar started to worry about Jerrian. The window of time for their plan was long over, yet he had still not returned. He felt a little guilty at leaving him to the mercy of that wallowing ale bag, but what else was he to have done? Jerrian was more than capable of taking care of himself, and Makar was little use in a fist fight. The plan had been for Jerrian to insult the merchant and his guardsmen by pretending to be a recruiter from the pleasure houses intent on hiring them. The merchant and his men would have been distracted and angry, their vigilance relaxed. In all likelihood, they would have chased Jerrian out of the plaza – which was what they were banking on. That was when Makar would slip into the canopy behind the stall and take the two bottles of Dream Serum. Jer was needlessly worried about being hurt during their sham – Makar had never known anyone to run as fast as he could. Add in the heavy armour and unwieldy weaponry of the guardsmen, and Jerrian would be as good as out of their sight at the first hint of a threat. He just hoped his temper had not gotten the better of him again…

Snorting to himself, Makar choked back a laugh. Jer and his troublesome temper. Makar had seen time and again Jerrian fail to control his anger in various different situations. He was too serious, he needed to learn to enjoy life. Instead, he worked himself up by letting the world and its problems affect him. Makar preferred to breeze through life, never caring and never worrying about what people thought of him, or where life would take him. Jer couldn’t do that. He needed reasons for the things he did and he was always trying to question and understand concepts that made Makar’s head hurt. Still, being around him was never dull. Trouble seemed to find Jerrian more often than Makar found a soft breast.

Looking out across the square towards the streets heading back into the city, Makar suddenly spotted a tall blonde haired figure striding purposefully down the empty road on the far side of the square. The flamboyant clothing and familiar tread made Makar laugh out loud with relief. Finally.


A low whistle made Jerrian lift his head and look up to the top of the abandoned tower ahead. A small silhouette outlined against the white stone walls gave him a quick wave before disappearing back inside the belfry. Still muttering to himself, he swept the deserted square with a critical eye before breaking into a jog to reach the shadowed archway ahead. Passing through the rusted doorway – taking care to ensure he closed it carefully behind him – he crossed a small entrance hall and walked hurriedly up the pitted marble steps to the summit. Situated in the middle of the landing was a large silver bell that had often been used to signal the morning devotions. To the right of this, a door led out onto the balcony overlooking the square. Despite the heat outside, Jerrian could make out a fire at the opposite end of the room where Makar casually reclined against the stone walls. Light poured in from two chipped stained glass windows, depicting the Lord and Lady; Torra and Ikean. Loosening his waistcoat, he stomped round the bell and threw himself down beside his friend. His temper had evaporated from earlier, and in its place was left a feeling of bitter disappointment.

“Well…that went well, didn’t it?” Remarked Makar with a laugh.

Disgustedly, Jerrian reached across and thumped his friend on the shoulder, before leaning back against the wall and closing his eyes. “I was expecting difficult, Makar. I was prepared for difficult and almost anything those guards could have thrown at me, but a random passer in the street? There’s no planning for that” He sighed.

“What happened?” Makar asked quietly.

Jerrian opened one eye and looked across at his friend. “Didn’t you see that part, then? He wouldn’t leave off. I knew it was risky wearing this outfit, but seriously, I wasn’t expecting that. I think I could have still made something of the situation, but then he got hold of Kaya’s broach and I…snapped – hey, give it a rest will you!” He said as Makar burst out laughing.”  I had to get out of there, quick. Well, maybe there will be another chance before we have to go back to the Temple.” He finished doubtfully.

Struggling to control himself, Makar fended off another blow to the shoulder as Jerrian growled at him to be quiet. Making a soothing gesture, he stumbled to his feet and walked over to a dim corner of the room, retrieving a neatly tied bundle from a bench against the wall. Walking back to Jerrian he threw him the package before taking a seat once more.

“Your regular clothes are in there” He said, still chuckling. “It’s probably best you change in here before we go back out into the city. Also, there’s a bucket of fresh water that I drew from one of the wells in that corner, along with some soap. I’d make good use of it, if I were you. You stink. Did he try and hug you or something? And what’s in your hair, fruit?”

Grumbling, Jerrian dragged himself to his feet and started to peel off the fruit and dust stained clothing, piling it on the floor beside him. Rummaging through his old bundle of clothes, he pulled on a set of soft leather breeches before making his way over to the bucket and soap. The water was ice cold and he gasped and spluttered as he washed his head, neck and torso before walking back and using the yellow and white vest to dry off. Shrugging into a loose grey shirt, he sat back down next to Makar with a sigh.

“So, that Dream Serum” said Makar. “You never did tell me why you wanted it. What is it?”

Jerrian turned to stare incredulously at his friend “You’ve never heard of it before? You need to come out of the brothels once in a while, Mak, maybe you’d learn something”

“Well maybe you need to go into the brothels once in a while Jer. I bet you would learn something too!” Makar laughed, with a wink. “Seriously though, you know I don’t go in for all this unnatural stuff. That’s your fantasy, not mine.”

“I suppose it doesn’t matter now, does it” Jerrian sighed. “I think that was my one chance to get my hands on a bottle…that Deren cursed peasant!” He swore suddenly. “Why couldn’t he have just left me alone? He ruined the plan, and I lost my temper. Again.”

He fell silent and closed his eyes once more. Makar stretched languorously and cast his friend a sly look before casually announcing “Well, if you aren’t going to tell me why we went to all that trouble, I suppose I should take these two bottles back to that slimy merchant with our apologies.” With a grin he reached into the small black bag next to him and removed two red vials, filled to the brim with a colourless, swirling liquid. Two white wax plugs secured the contents as Makar held them up to the light streaming through the nearby window.

Jerrian’s eyes snapped open and he let out a yell of shock as he stared at the two bottles in Makar’s hands.

“Torra’s bollocks, how did you get – b-but I thought t-that I’d ruined everything!” He spluttered.

Makar frowned, leaning over to carefully place the two bottles in Jerrian’s trembling hands.

“Ruined everything? Jer, I don’t think it could actually have gone better. Every single eye was on you and that bloated sack of wine. Every. Single. Eye! Honestly, it was the easiest thing to sneak behind that stall and find these. I thought about it and I’m convinced if we had managed to pull off the original idea and caused some kind of scuffle, I would have been seen for sure. We were gambling on all the guards chasing you, but there was no guarantee that they would. This worked out better – though you losing your temper again was a nice bonus. You’re so serious, Jer” He said, with a shake of his head.

Sitting there in stunned disbelief, Jerrian could do little more than grunt in acknowledgement of Makar’s last comment. He stared in awe at the two small bottles, barely three inches in height, feeling a warm glow of excitement rush through his body. It was hard to believe he held in his hands the potion of Rakatan. A slow, satisfied grin spread across his face as he looked up at Makar, who was studying him with a faintly amused expression.

“This is amazing, Mak. You really are the best. Do you want the second bottle?” Jerrian offered.

Makar did not even hesitate before shaking his head, and Jerrian understood. Trickster, liar and a thief he might be, but Jerrian had never shown any interest in anything remotely out of the ordinary. He loved his life in the Temple and to him, the only way he would leave the country of Cleval was if he were forced to.

“They’re not for me, Jer” Makar said, leaning across and gently tracing the swirling contours of a bottle. “Although, I would still like to know why we went to so much trouble for them. They were locked up tight, in a very expensive looking strongbox, so they must be rare. Are you going to sell them?”

“Sell them?” Jerrian laughed incredulously. “No, I’m definitely not selling them! I’m going to use them – well, one of them anyway. The tales all say that if an ordinary person drinks Dream Serum, then they will become an Adept – without being born one. I’m going to have to ask some very subtle questions when we get back to the Temple. I’m sure one of the Arch-Priests will have knowledge I can use.”

Carefully, Jerrian handed the vials back to Makar to wrap and place back in the bag beside him. Makar, however, sat there staring at them with a faint look of distaste. Abruptly, he stood and walked over to the door leading out on to the balcony. Slightly confused, Jerrian watched as his friend turned to him, a look of resolve on his usually relaxed features.

“I should throw these off the tower, Jer.” He said quietly.

“What? No! Why would you do that?” Cried Jerrian.

“Why!? Haven’t you just listened to yourself?” He shouted angrily, his face turning red. “Adepts are born not made! I know enough about their ways to know it wouldn’t be by drinking some strange looking liquid in a fancy bottle! I’d be doing you a favour. What if those so called tales you heard were wrong? I’ve never heard anything like that before. What if this stuff poisoned you, or-or-or even killed you? Or your cock shrivelled up and fell off? Did you ever think of that? For someone usually so serious, you really do let your good sense fly out of the window when it comes to those cursed Adepts. You have to let those childish dreams go, Jer. You’re not a kid anymore.”

Jerrian stood there stunned as Makar’s tirade washed over him. The older boy had one hand on the brass ring that secured the door to a bolt on the wall, but he had not yet made a move to open it.

I can still stop him he thought, frantically. I can still get those bottles back.

I didn’t know he cared so much another part of him thought, with surprise.

He took a tentative step forwards, and Makar tensed, ready to fling open the door and rush out onto the balcony. He would do it, too, Jerrian knew. Makar never made empty promises to his friends.

It took a lot of nerve for Jerrian to stop, and walk back towards the fire and sit down. He looked over at his friend and saw he hadn’t yet made a move to go outside. Tiredly, he leaned his head back against the wall with a sigh.

“I won’t try and stop you, Mak” He said sadly. “I know you mean well, but this a lifelong dream of mine. How about a compromise? I promise I won’t use the bottles until I’m absolutely sure I know what they do.” He raised his voice as Makar opened his mouth to object. “- Also, you can keep hold of the bottles, until I know for sure. As long as you promise me you won’t break them. Give me a month to find out. Just one month. Please?”

Jerrian held his breath as he watched his friend slowly close his mouth, swallowing whatever he had been about to say. He gazed thoughtfully at Jerrian, his head cocked slightly to one side.

“One month?” He asked, his dark eyes never leaving Jerrian’s.

“One month” Jerrian replied seriously, nodding. “On Kaya’s life, I swear it.”

“Bah! You don’t have to do that.” Makar said disgustedly, finally taking his hand from the latch and walking back to Jerrian’s side. “You said one month and I trust you. One month it is. I just hope you know what you’re doing.” He finished warningly.

Jerrian stared into the embers of the slowly dying fire, feeling a tiredness he hadn’t known existed settle into his muscles.


I hope I do too, Mak. He thought with a shiver.